I must...

"I must learn to love the fool in me--the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries.

It alone protects me against that utterly self-controlled, masterful tyrant whom I also harbor and who would rob me of my human aliveness, humility, and dignity but for my Fool."

-Theodore I. Rubin-

Live Like You're Dying

One of these days you’ll be
under the covers you’ll be
under the table and you’ll realize
all of your days are numbered;
all of them one to one hundred.
All of them millions.
All of them trillions.
So what are you gonna do with them all?
You can not trade them in for mall.
no no

Cuma Bencong yang Nangis

Air mata yang keluar dapat dihapus,
sementara air mata yang tersembunyi
menggoreskan luka yang tidak akan pernah hilang

Apa yang membedakan boneka Barbie dengan pistol air? Sedari kecil, saya akan menjawab, boneka itu mainan cewek dan pistol air mainan cowok. Walaupun saat itu saya sudah bermain dengan boneka Star Wars ataupun He-Man The Master of The Universe, ah beda, ini kan bukan boneka, ini Action Figures.

Yang jelas sosialisasi pemisahan macam ini biasanya sudah diajarkan sejak kecil. Baik dari orang tua maupun masyarakat sekitar, termasuk teman-terman. Salah satu bentuknya adalah tadi, boneka vs pistol air, main masak-masakan vs main benteng-bentengan, kencing duduk vs kencing berdiri, dst.

If I don't let myself by happy now then when?

The first star I see may not be a star.
We can't do a thing but wait.
So let's wait for one more.
The time such clumsy time in deciding if it's time.
I'm careful but not sure how it goes.
You can loose yourself in your courage.
The mindless comfort grows when I'm alone with my 'great' plans.
This is what she says gets her through it:
"If I don't let myself by happy now then when?"
If not now when?
When the time we have now ends.
When the big hand goes round again.
Can you still feel the butterflies?
Can you still hear the last goodnight?
Close my eyes and believe wherever you are, an angel for me.

kejujuran

Terkadang kejujuran membuka dan melapangkan jalan....

beberapa hari ini

beberapa hari ini, kalo denger lagu terutama lagu dengan beatnya kenceng,
gayanya pengen mirip2 koil di klip kita masih bisa diselamatkan...
lagi seneng denger muse yang album the resistance, gw suka the resistancenya
huehehehe...

is your secret safe tonight?
And are we out of sight?
Or will our world come tumbling down?
Will they find our hiding place?
Is this our last embrace?
Or will the world start caving in?

Pale

The world seems not the same

Though I know nothing has changed
It's all my state of mind
I can't leave it all behind
I have to stand up to be stronger
I have to try
To break free
From the thoughts in my mind
Use the time that I have
I can say goodbye
Have to make it right
Have to fight
'Cause I know in the end it's worthwhile
That the pain that I feel slowly fades away
It will be all right

I know
I should realize
Time is precious
It is worthwhile
Despite how I feel inside
Have to trust it'll be alright
Have to stand up to be stronger

Oh, this night is too long
Have no strength to go on
No more pain I'm floating away

Through the mist I see the face
Of an angel, calls my name
I remember you're the reason I have to stay

I'm looking for a book...

I'm looking for a book... something that can help me deal with what might be an awkward situation. Something funny might be nice, but not necessarily big, 'ha, ha, ha,' 'laugh, laugh, laugh' funny, and certainly not make-fun-of-other-people funny but rather something human-funny.
And, uh, if it could uh, sneak up on you, surprise you, and at the same time make you think that what you thought wasn't only right, in a wrong kind of way, but when you're wrong, there's a certain rightness in your wrongness... Well, what I mean is, more importantly, I'm looking to be swept up! And at the same time, not....

Forgoten

already forgotten
time to moving forward

SOMNOLENCE

Gilaaa.... ngantuk pisaaaannnn...

My pale broken wings

my Pale broken wings, you're just a little tired from the sky which is too blue. Don't do it for anyone else. Just smile for yourself ...

Kata bijak hari ini

lelaki tampan berkata pada wanita....

"kata tapi itu selalu ada. Kalo kamu mau lakukan sesuatu jangan takut ngadepin resikonya. Kamu diem aja pun kata tapi pasti muncul. Move on!!!"

dan setelah berkata seperti itu, lelaki tampan itu langsung menemukan si wanita mulai menangis dan kemudian merengek.

"Tapi... tapi aku takut"

Serta merta lelaki tampan itu pun berkata.

"Kuarepmuuuuuuuuu suuuuuu!! pangan kae tapi!!"

hehehehe... ngambil dari salah satu forum bleach... suka senyum2 sendiri kalo dibaca lagi...

Kurang tidur

hari ini agak ngantuk.. kurang tidur gara-gara liat hujan meteor
yang ternyata cuman keliatan satu dua kayak bintang jatuh...
malah ngeliatin acara gak jelas di tipi... acara dengan menampilkan cewe-cewe bohai pada joget-joget gak jelas... :P

Unforgiven too

Lay beside me, tell me what they've done
Speak the words I want to hear, to make my demons run
The door is locked now, but it's open if you're true
If you can understand the me, than I can understand the you.

Lay beside me, under wicked sky
Through black of day, dark of night, we share this pair of lives
The door cracks open, but there's no sun shining through
Black heart scarring darker still, but there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?

What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there?, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?

Come lay beside me, this won't hurt I swear
She loves me not, she loves me still, but she'll never love again
She lay beside me, but she'll be there when I'm gone
Black heart scarring darker still, yes she'll be there when I'm gone
Yes, she'll be there when I'm gone
Dead sure she'll be there!

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?

What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there?, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?

(Solo)

Lay beside me, tell me what I've done
The door is closed, so are your eyes
But now I see the sun, now I see the sun
Yes now I see it!

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?

What I've felt, what I've known
So sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there?, 'cause I'm the one who waits,
The one who waits for you

Oh what I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?
(So I dub thee unforgiven)

Oh, what I've felt
Oh, what I've known!

I take this key (never free)
And I bury it (never me) in you
Because you're unforgiven too

Never free
Never me
'Cause you're unforgiven too!

nice song, reminds me of high school... hmmm highschool

Blue Danube Waltz

entah kenapa lagu ini nyasar disalah satu playlist gw... tapi ternyata enak juga kalo didenger pas coding.... hehehe..
tarararara... rara... rara...
tarararara... rara... rara...
tarararara........

Delight and angers

Everyday takes figuring out how to live,
Sometimes it feels like a mistake,
Sometimes its a winners parade,
Delight and angers,
I guess thats the way its supposed to be...

When People Ask you a Question...

Confusion is always the most honest response.

is it an ability

Love is not a feeling, Mr. Burns... It's an ability...

I forgot....

every times we make plan...
we always forget to make one plan..

plan to be surprised...

damn...